March 2010
February 2010
i have been
packed with so much homework now.
AND because i’m on swim now i get home late and i start homework later too :(
i really need to cut down on my computer hours.
i haven’t been able to update a lot either!
i think imma start writing in my journal again, even though i don’t like writing things down and tumblr is way better, i can doodle and design weird things in my journal.
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“hey sorry! i don’t have unlimited texting, and i want to save some texts for her, imma have to go now byee!”
↑that right there is commitment.
he believes her, trusts her.
“she’s the most wonderful girl i’ve ever met. i’m so happy i got to meet her”
↑hearing you say that just daggers a sword in my heart.
when i’m right next to you.
it...
to see
the way you kiss her,
the way you hold her,
the way you make her happy,
the way you make her feel special,
the way you give her everything,
makes me hurt, ache, and rot deep down inside.
i don’t deserve any sort or type of love like this.
after all, everything i do try in so hard i end up not getting it.
i basically fail in life.
WELL.
this is REALLY REALLY BAD. but i think i like my ex -___-” yeah, so like my friends going out with him and when i heard she was moving i was so happy cuhs now i can get my ex back! SO FUCKED UP RIGHT? but at the moment i was being selfish, i saw him today too. i found out he does swim and the first thing hear is YOSHIKO YOSHIKO! he’s right there and gives me a big hug. damn it. how i...
tears
for some reason i’ve thought about a lot of things today. my past, present, and future. my life is so complicated right now. i don’t know what to do. i haven’t cried in three weeks, and today would be my first. i think i’ve had so much stress from school, my family, a boy who keeps on playing with my feelings. it hurts. a lot. but what can i do? everything happens for a...
